The Dread
Hello everyone =) Long time no see. I'm sorry about the big space between entries, a lot of stuff has been going on these last four months.
My dearest Friskie passed away on February 14th, 2026, which made me go into a really dark place that I haven't actually climbed out of yet, but
I'm not here to talk about THAT. I talk about that enough with my therapist... and boyfriend.... and school to explain my missing assignments...
and my friends to explain why there are cuts all over my arms........ but anyway...
My nephew who I will call Juice is now 4.5 months old! He's soooo cute. I love being able to go babysit him. It's a bright spot for sure. I'm looking
for jobs in teaching or early childcare right now, looking for apartments to move into in September, and taking driving lessons, so I'm trying to
keep my time occupied while between jobs. I also went to Ireland without telling you about it until now! We were there in early March for the baptism.
It was so nice seeing my family, but it was legit a week after I had to put Friskie down, so it was tough for sure.
It's a bit hard for me to continue this entry in the same tone as before, as I started writing it a couple of days ago and I've been experiencing very
different moods at different times. Although I'm trying to keep this blog, and this website, positive, it's really hard for me to be positive right now
without feeling disingenuous. I think everything will get better once I get out of this house.
I've been reading a lot to take my mind off of things, so my Library page will get some updates. I'm trying for 50 books this year. I'd also like anyone
who comes across my 2026 booklog to know that I read 50 Shades of Grey just to see what all the Wine Mom hype was about, but frankly, even though
I'm a pervert, I was not impressed by it at all. It was REALLY bad. It's a little strange seeing it in my log right next to books that genuinely inspired
me or moved me in some way, but a book is a book... Maybe I just didn't see the literary merit. I definitely saw the misogyny, but that was about it.
Anyways, I'm gonna end this entry here and ignore my ever-growing pile of missing assignments to write some stuff about Project Hail Mary, which will
be uploaded at the same time as this blog entry on the Library page. To whoever has read this... good morning, good afternoon, and good night. See ya later.
Sunday, May 3, 2026 <3
Happy New Year!
I am officially an aunt! My little nephew was born on December 22nd, 2025, at around 10 in the morning =). I love him already! He's a pretty chill newborn,
but that can definitely be subject to change.
My family is going to Ireland for the baptism; my parents
are both immigrants to America, so half of our family live in Ireland, a quarter live in Italy, and another quarter live in England. I made a little map to make
it easier to understand:
So, anyway, we're going to Ireland for the baptism so that my Granny can see the baby. She's wheelchair-bound and can't talk or move much after she suffered a stroke,
so she obviously can't travel. She's our last living grandparent, if you don't count my Dad's father, who is a giant cunt. One time, we were at a birthday party
in England for my uncle, and he handed me a pile of plates because he thought I was working there. I was eight! Obviously he had met me before, he just... forgot?
He was such a jerk that my Nana (Dad's mum) ended up divorcing him in the 70's. Which is crazy- she was a SUPER devout Catholic, so for her to resort to divorce means
that he was REALLY bad to her and the kids. After that, she ended up marrying my Granddad George, who was such a sweetheart. My father never called him 'Dad', as they married
after he was already an adult, but my siblings and I all considered him our Grandfather.
I'm very excited to go to Ireland! I think I'll get a proper digital camera (I have film cameras and a camcorder, but no digital camera) to take pictures, since it's
a very notable event. I've wanted to try digital photography for a while now, too. I know that phone cameras are really good nowadays, but they just don't have the same
feeling or effect that cameras do in my opinion. I'll have to get started on adding a gallery page to the website (it'll probably be in the library somewhere) for the photos.
Maybe I can sort them by location? Not sure yet. I love when people have galleries on their websites so I've been itching to do the same.
Well, that's all I've got to say for this entry, so I'll talk to you later! Thanks for reading!
Saturday, January 10, 2026 <3